The Road Not Taken

 作者  FOX9999 (sky walker)                                 看板  P_P_FOX9999  
 標題  感覺...                                                                 
 時間  Sat Mar 31 21:59:32 2007                                                
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看了很多很多的舊文章後，                                                       
                                                                               
配著蘇打綠的音樂，                                                             
                                                                               
口卡 口卡 口卡的吃進腦海中，                                                   
                                                                               
我感覺到....                                                                   
                                                                               
我的熱情和夢想又回來了!                                                        
                                                                               
而且是可以實現的!!                                                             
                                                                               
套句老套話：「讓我的心飛躍了起來！」                                           
                                                                               
也無意間發現了原來材料系另一位性情中人，                                       
                                                                               
原來還是有好女孩的，而且是那種小說才會出現的個性歐，                           
                                                                               
但是從外表完全看不出來。                                                       
                                                                               
發自內心的文字也是一種力量吧，包含著情緒投擲在紙上螢幕上，                     
                                                                               
不論是多麼拙劣的文筆，當它發酵成回憶時，就能帶給你力量。                       
                                                                               
我覺得冷漠和排外其實是一種掩飾，                                               
                                                                               
為了掩飾內心的脆弱，怕被發現、怕被嘲笑、怕被現實宰割，                         
                                                                               
太多人不願意承認自己的脆弱，                                                   
                                                                               
害怕、害怕，害怕太多的害怕讓自己喪失勇氣，                                     
                                                                               
大家都在找自己的祕密花園，                                                     
                                                                               
在那裏，可以放肆的哭泣，放肆的大叫，放肆的愛自己想愛的人，                     
                                                                               
有些人找到了，從此把自己鎖在裡面。                                             
                                                                               
有些人沒找到，只好不斷的轉移目標分散注意力，                                   
                                                                               
只為了填補現實的空虛，                                                         
                                                                               
但是事實上其實並不是那麼空虛，                                                 
                                                                               
真正愛你的人一直都不會變，                                                     
                                                                               
只是很多人都很害怕，                                                           
                                                                               
所以大家都隱隱約約有著一種默契：                                               
                                                                               
「你不找我，我幹嘛理你。」                                                     
「幹嘛忽然對我這麼好，想裝熟喔？」                                             
「你懂什麼？」                                                                 
                                                                               
                                                                               
當一個滿懷熱情的人，進到這個有此默契的環境裡，                                 
                                                                               
到處碰壁、到處被潑冷水，                                                       
                                                                               
他就會開始質疑自己所做的一切：                                                 
「我這樣做是為了什麼？」                                                       
                                                                               
漸漸的就被同化成冷漠的人。                                                     
                                                                               
很矛盾，大自然卻很需要熱情的人。                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
號稱哥倆好的自大和自卑也是一樣，                                               
                                                                               
為了填補空虛，想藉此增加自信心，                                               
                                                                               
但是回到寢室、回到自己的地方後，                                               
                                                                               
卻忍不住在夜裡哭泣。                                                           
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
勇氣大概是這個時代的人們最欠缺的東西，                                         
                                                                               
人家說：初生之犢不怕虎。                                                       
                                                                               
勇氣是與生俱來的，                                                             
                                                                               
但是不知道為什麼，太多的害怕害怕，                                             
                                                                               
很多人都把勇氣封印了起來。                                                     
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
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我決定了，你回來後，就告訴你吧。                                               
                                                                               
一切都不需要害怕。                                                             
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夫兵者不祥之器物或惡之故有道者不處君子居則貴左用兵則貴右兵者不祥之器非君子     
之器不得已而用之恬淡為上勝而不美而美之者是樂殺人夫樂殺人者則不可得志於天下     
矣吉事尚左凶事尚右偏將軍居左上將軍居右言以喪禮處之殺人之眾以哀悲泣之戰勝以     
喪禮處之道常無名樸雖小天下莫能臣侯王若能守之萬物將自賓天地相合以降甘露民莫     
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